.Wednesday, October 10, 2007 ' 1:04 am Y
hand in hand we go
initially i had wanted to blog on the other private blog. so i went to read some of the posts and suddenly i just felt like i couldnt relate to that life anymore.
and i know the reason why.
the reason is because at that time gavian and SIM wasnt in my life yet.
and it had just been a few months and its changed so much.
so i probably wont be blogging there anymore. haha.
anyways, project's almost done. almost. just a little bit more. left parts to edit and compile and there goes the last of this sem's projects. i cant say i miss school because i dont really miss it all that much. but i do miss jiajia n shihui a lot.
i miss the times when i'd have weekend dates with jiajia. somehow we just drifted after i knew gavian. and it was inevitable.
i'm glad i can still feel like connection between me and shihui although it is not as strong as before anymore. and this is again, inevitable.
i had drifted from lijia and gang too. from kimmy too. and from my SIM mates. and i miss lijia and gang a lot. another reason why i drifted from them is because they all went army too. i miss vicki tekwani too. he's a good friend n advisor although an extremely effective irritant. i dont know why but he irritates the hell outta me all the time. i miss talking to marcus yue for he has gone to thailand for a month i wonder how is he doing over there. i miss the two guys in ee gongs. for they are part of the wonderful memories i had in poly. for all the laughters and smiles and all the happy days we've had. i just love them like family. maybe zhihong may protest otherwise but i think deep down he loves us too. hahaa.
i'm glad the only thing that hasnt changed much is my relationship with the MC people. which i dont know why. haha. i'm glad i'd always have florence, joanna, jean and jeremy to talk to. i hardly see steph but its always nice to have her around in MC and she's part of the MC family.
tracy and qian hui has been missing for as long as i can remember. and its just so sad. i miss qian hui more because somehow we still have this connection between us held together by the memories we have of each other. somehow i cant connect with tracy anymore. but its ok, i still love her and i'd still hope to catch up with her one day for she, kim and qian would always hold a special place in my heart.
jieying too has gone missing for a long time which i cant get her back. all i can do is wish you well. the decision is yours whatever that i could do or could have helped i think i've done it already.
just met up with huimin and vincent for lunch today. and all is well for us. i love you babe ((=
another person that i truly missed and have been thinking about is charmaine lim. haha. how many of you actually remember her?? lol. its been so long. but she was a good friend i'd never forget and i hope to see her soon.
tkd is just out of my life for now. all that remains are some friendships i have with people like marcus and weiping. lol.
and gavian needs to know that my love for him is unlike the love i have for all mentioned above. the love i have for him is a love that speaks straight to my heart which makes me tear because its too strong an emotion it makes me weak. and i just love him. i have nothing else to say except that i'm sorry and i love you very much.
