.Wednesday, October 03, 2007 ' 4:25 pm Y
hand in hand we go
my plans are like forever changing. my days appear routined, but minor details are always changing for example me and shihui can decide to meet and then decide to not meet within a span of 10 minutes. and i can decide to go school and then decide not to within like a second. haha. so to make a decision only takes a second. and sometimes that second will determine what you're gonna do for that many hours that come after or it could even determine something for a lifetime. anyways is it me or is it normal to keep changing your mind??? anyways my grammer is like shit now. my phrasing and everything is like shit too. someone pls tuition me english.
my mood is like shit. i am tired like shit cause i woke up in pain early in the morning and it took me so long to get back to sleep and i woke up sweating at 12.30pm and then proceeded to call shihui and woke her up and called darling and after which i went to bathe and shihui told me she's coming to bb the weather is so hot its crazy and then i went up to mc to collect my student's cert and had lunch there and then i was so tired but comfortable i just didnt wanna move and i decided not to go sch anymore cause i know if i stand up i'm just gonna feel sick all over again and then i dicussed with jean and ros about payrise and how to go about telling boss oh shit i just gotta throw away some pride and ask nicely for a 5% rise which is surprising a big amount for me and i so want that 5% but i'm afraid to ask but i have to do it cause its 'ask and you shall be given' but its so difficult for me to open my mouth and ask but i'm gonna do it anyways with a bit of toughened skin for my own goodness sake.
so yeah. and i'm back home trying to squeeze some brain juices out for the BF proj but i cant seem to squeeze any and ended up writing this whole chunk of brainless rattle that goes on and on. sighs. i feel so light headed i cant seem to get any solid work done. someone pls wake me up or give me some energy booster. i dont even wanna think about whats gonna happen during the weekends cause i cant seem to define or think properly a purpose and i feel tired having to think about things that i shouldnt be thinking about but i cant help it because the root of it comes from home and i'm home more than ever since school has sort of unofficially ended.
i'm just doing too much rubbish. like such a waste of time. so enough of bull shitting its time to get back to doing some work.
