.Wednesday, January 30, 2008 ' 3:07 pm Y
hand in hand we go
a clear direction is what makes me happy
HE brings light for me, lifts me up and shows me what is to be done when i am lost.
what i should do is clear, but it is so very difficult. i know what i have to do to find the strength to continue to this path He's shown, and its all up to me... again. over and over again, i come back here to this crossroad. shown the way over and over again. it is up to me. i am so afraid of letting Him down, disappoint him again and again. but as usual, all the time, my cowardice takes the better of me. i should just brave it and stop being such a coward.
theres a certain someone i need to thank.
we'll take this step by step. theres something new everyday.
.Friday, January 25, 2008 ' 5:14 pm Y
hand in hand we go
went many many places on 24/01/08
nevermind the minor disagreement that we had the moment we met yesterday because after that we spent the rest of our day till night together, going many many places, seeing many many things, and spending the many many minutes together, and me loving every of those minutes spent with bf ((=
surprisingly not many pictures were taken yesterday, because there is really not much to take.
i'll summarize yesterday in point forms for memories sake in case i wanna look back in the future and remind myself of yesterday. although we took little pictures for whoevers reading this blog to view, but those moments are clear in my head, i'm not an artist, so i cant draw the pictues in my mind to show you all, but all i know is i that i had a wonderful wonderful day. and it was just the two of us ((=
`bf rented a car yesterday from one of the rental stores in turf city.
`had wanton noodle there cause i was hungry
`singapore was raining cats and dogs everywhere
`went to this jurong hill place, was drizzling a little.
`exchanged our handmade cards and pressies in the car. hehee. thanks darling for the card ((=
`spent some time there, feeling the breeze, taking pictures, playing with our phones
`went to this bottletree place for dinner @ sembawang
`went geylang for "sightseeing", going round and round 3 times in total. hahaha.
`went changi village carpark for another round of "sightseeing" but we supposed they all went clubbing leaving only 1 scary looking trans in white around.
`going to aloha chalets, went around the place once.
`driving through the road right beside the runway for airplanes, and we managed to spot 1 of the airplanes taking off.
`went visiting bf's old house @ woodlands near the memorial place.
`went roaming round bf's current estate.
`bf sent me home first before going home
and while we were going about all that places, many things happened like bangalahs riding bicycle in groups flooding the road at the side, me reading the map for bf and yes, we did reach our destination ok, although not in time. hahahah, making many many u turns because we missed the road, but still finally getting to the place. bf being a 'safe driver' hahaa. which he is lah, except that he occasionally likes to take his hands off the wheel and it makes me gan cheong. hahaha. bf and his 'chiong ah' which i refuse to cooperate and say together with him. hahaha. going to the bottleneck place and my heels getting stucked twice. but its a nice and quiet place afterall where we can smell the salty sea and enjoy the breeze, except for the stupid mosquitoes that attacked my legs the moment i sat down, but thank goodness i brought my miracle cream and no more disturbance from them afterwards. but the bites till now are still damn itchy man. going to the aloha place, bumping into those teenagers playing in the middle of the room, them scruffling and clearing the road the moment they saw our car, and clapping and waving while letting our car pass. oh my, was damn funny and embarassing lah. bf still waved to them. hahaha. nearly fainted man. hahaha.
funny how the more i write and try to remember the details from yesterday, the blurer the memories become. i know i'll forget certain details in the future, but what i wont forget is the serenity, peace and privacy sitting in the car with bf beside me, listening to the radio, bf telling me many stories, bringing me to the many places that we went.
you all must be damn bored if you did read every single word till here i think cause it is really a damn huge chunk of writings up there.
so i'll let pictures do some talking, although i seriously dont have much pictures to show. hahaa.
i even forgot to take pictures of the car lah. argh. haha. when we returned the car to the rental place today, there was this crack in the windscreen and now they called up and wants us to pay for the damage, but we dont have any recollection of any hard objects hitting our windscreen leh. so i'm gonna go down laters with bf to see if i can er.. shang liang with them. 100 bucks for one small crack leh. madness.
darling.. thanks for the sweet handmade card n for making our 6th months so memorable.. it was a special and happy day afterall that was spent running about, spending the day in our own world. many many loves darling.... i hope we'll continue to learn and understand each other better in the future and go through all thats ahead of us. i love you loads n loads ((=
.Monday, January 21, 2008 ' 1:52 am Y
hand in hand we go
LOVE is you darling
so so so so so in love with you
so so so so so in love with you
.Friday, January 18, 2008 ' 3:08 pm Y
hand in hand we go
went JE complex with sh and jia yesterday ((=
still rem the last time i went was with sh and ah bu ((=
ah bu.. when are you gonna join us???
poor jia got kicked by me so many times. hahaha. oops. anyways, we had fun, trying to sit on one pathetic float, eyeing other people's floats and getting on those slides. haha.
been wanting to go for so long and we finally went!! pity ah bu wasnt there =((
ah bu where have you been? hahaha. so long nv talk to you alr.
anyways, i love ee gongs so much!! shihui.. we aim for travelling next time k?? hahhaa. nono. we aim for me to sit in your car first. hahaha.
pappy is so stupid. she peed in the kitchen. and now she's sitting so peacefully on my lap. show you guys the pic she took with mr moo next time. and i set it as bf's display pic. hahaha.
it gets harder and harder as you progress in a relationship because so many things have been built up. wrongdoings, frustrations, mistakes that occurred over and over again, personality clashes and basically things and topics that surfaces over and over again, and in the end both parties just gets sick of the reoccuring problems and it is when the relationship becomes fragile. as much as you hope we'll get over this phase, so do i. as much as you want to keep the relationship, so do i. as much as you love me, i do too. as much as you want me to give the way you give, i want to too. but sadly i cant and i dont know how. pls dont doubt that i love you with all my heart. because you mean as much as ee gongs mean to me. and i love ee gongs with all my heart. the love i have is not measurable, nor expressable, nor explainable. ee gongs is family and so are you. theres no choosing between ee gongs and you. i love you darling.. do you understand??
.Thursday, January 17, 2008 ' 1:09 am Y
hand in hand we go
haha.
am super excited cause.........
bf saw this samsung phone f330 online.. and it seems quite nice!!! and CHEAP!! haha
and i was talking to vicky abt work.. and i realised i'm stucked with marketing and i have no qualms about it. in fact like marketing. hahaha. yeah.. i do. because its all that i know best anyways. studied marketing in poly, marketing again now in uni. and almost, nearly all our modules revolves around the same old marketing stuffs. its so general in fact, no matter how drilled the concepts are in our heads, theres no way to learn anything unless we go out and exprience the damn industry ourselves. we've heard things like 'in the real world...... blah blah blah... its different from... blah blah blah' a million times since poly. theories and the real world contradicts. its such a slutty world out there. screw the theory. what the hell is it about learning business ethics?? bullshit man. tell me who is ethical out there? pple dont give a shit about your feelings and all that talk about fairness. its about winning, making money and fame. all in all, its a huge battleground where you gotta watch your back all the time in any case any of your so called trusted people stab you so they can check off the list of people to get rid of to get to the top.
i think the stupidest module i've ever taken is business ethics. such a stupid name. oh yes. i think organizational behaviour is equally stupid as well. makes me wanna feed the photocopied textbook to the shredder machine. all that bullshit about theory. gosh it disgust me so much.
i was searching online for advertising and marketing companies to see what kind of industry am i seriously getting myself into. and then when i saw those websites, it just reminded me of the stupid addon system IT company that i was attached to. i hate the company, i hate the fakery of the people there, i hate the politics, i despise the people, i want them to lose what they have (esp that bloody guy whom i was under), i actually want him to fail and see him fall, i hate the accountant whom i was under after that because shes so fake and suckup and all that, and all the others whom i despise so much. sitting at the recept area i observed and saw so many things, so many ugly people, the masks of everybody and everything, such a dirty world, so many dirty people. thanks for making life hell for me for that 3 months man. i thank the company sincerely for teaching me what sch couldnt teach me and showed me all that i need to know and prepare before school officially ends this dec and i start work next year. not gonna give chances to new people, cause theres really no nice people out there anymore, not at work. theres no such things as friends or love in the workplace. its either you can do it or you cant, if you cant then you're out. simpleee.
.Wednesday, January 16, 2008 ' 12:44 am Y
hand in hand we go
happy birthday daddy ((=
shihui passed her driving today!!!! hahahah. congrats dear!!!! finally can have you to pick me up at bb then we'd go sch together in ur car, and i'll read the map, you drive. hahaha. just kidding lah. haha. but really happy for you sweetie!!!! ((=
finally cut my hair today. hahaha. but mc pple says they cant tell the difference. there is lah. its thinner now okays....
am still not looking forward to CNY. in fact i'm DREADING it. s-c-r-e-w--t-h-e-m. i hate them. i really do. i think. hahaha. sighs.
i kind of dread sleeping too. cause my head will just start spinning and spinning and then i cant move or else i'll just feel like vomiting until the moment i fall asleep. its irritating the shit out of me. and today was the only day i didnt feel dizzy since saturday. pls save me man. everyday i worry if my head will spin again tonight. i've got medi but it doesnt really seem to work. i dont know man. sucks.
bf went scouting for clinics last sat and brought me to cck. thanks darling.. thanks for doing the things that you do.. i love you much!!!!!!!!!!!! ((=
anyways, am gonna go sleep alr. get more rest and hopefully stop the spinning, get my energy back and hope for a miracle to happen on CNY. hahaha.
nites pple.
.Sunday, January 13, 2008 ' 10:42 pm Y
hand in hand we go
2008 hasnt been a good year for myself and for many around me..
i hope it'll change for the better after CNY.
i know my CNY is gonna suck this year because of some visitors whom i welcome as much as i welcome cockroaches to my home.
yeah. so screw it. i hope CNY passes quickly.
.Tuesday, January 08, 2008 ' 12:37 am Y
hand in hand we go
happy new yr pple!!
haha oops sorry i know its abit late.. haha.
hhmm sch has started and i think my modules are stupid again. in fact, the modules ARE stupid lah. i think business ethics IS STUPID.
anyways, im not looking forward to cny. this yr sort of started on a bad note. i dont know why. hahaha. i hope things will get better though.
10am class again tomorrow.
happy new yr again pple... i hope it'll be a good year for everyone!!!
((=
