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.Sunday, September 28, 2008 ' 12:21 am Y
hand in hand we go

whee.. last 2 weeks of project period before the nightmare begins.

went to sch for GM.. and seeing the project neatly binded, ready for submission reminds me why i prefer slogging for projects rather than to mug for exams. everything was done to perfection. whatever grade we get, we can proudly say we've given it our best.

had dinner w darling's friends to celebrate 2 of his friend's bday, belated tho.. haha. had zi char at chinatown which was wow expensive.

came home soon after because darling has a test on mon ((=



anyways, the stressful time is here again. everyone's feeling cranky, moody or emo-ish.

you irke me. the world is so small. you are eww.

hmm anyways, theres a thousand and one thing to do.

1. complete evaluation for sales proj
2. complete PE of PEST for strat proj
3. complete porter 5 forces for strat proj
4. revise grade 5 theory
5. read global textbook
6. read sales textbook
7. read sales articles

actually theres only 7 but i think to complete all these, will take me at least 2 weeks to do, but i dont have 2 weeks. i need to complete no.1 to no.3 by today if possible, if not by tmr i hope. =((

sighs. so now i'm off to complete no. 1


p.s: see my beloved jia and sh on mon!! school is always fun w the 2 of you around! we'll always manage to laugh, talk nonsense, do nonsense whenever its just the 3 of us around. even better if the whole of ee gong is studying together.. oh how i missed those poly days... sighs.





.Wednesday, September 24, 2008 ' 12:11 am Y
hand in hand we go

whee

we're so bored doing projects. hahaha. but it beats having to study for exams.


anyways, darling and me finally went for a haircut!!! he has short, neat and nice hair now and my hair is a lot shorter ((=

daddy invited darling over for dinner today at the zi char stall opp our house and we ended up so fullll. he came by to watch abit of tv before going home ((=


and i think i really want to visit the dentist to clean my teeth.



ok.. back to project.. theres still GM to compile, exec sum to do, strat porter and PEST. =(




HAPPY 14th MONTH DARLING ((=





.Wednesday, September 17, 2008 ' 8:04 pm Y
hand in hand we go

READ THIS STORY IF YOU LOVE ME. READ THIS STORY IF YOU'RE MY FRIEND. READ THIS STORY IF YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU. READ THIS STORY IF YOU'RE SOMEONE I SAID TO BEFORE, THAT YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO ME.

READ IT BECAUSE I BEG YOU TO.

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!'

He considers for a moment.

'Here's one for you.

Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues.

'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says.

He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God..'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: 'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.

'Who created them?

There is still no answer.

Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelled your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own.

'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.

You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room.

A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation.

'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it?

That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester.

'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. 'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.

To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.' 'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teachingyour opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?'

The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain?

No one appears to have done so.

'So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent.

The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers.
'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues.

'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil.

Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.' The professor sat down.

Pass this on if you love Jesus.


There are many things in the world which people cant explain.. we try ways and means to find an explanation. Science is the key to it. Science solves mysteries, science explores deep into matters, science has uncovered so many amazing and unbelievable discoveries. but WHO created all these wonders?? its God. science only discovered it. lets talk abt the big bang... the big bang is supposed to prove that God did create the world. But who created the big bang? God is real.

so if you love me and if you are my friend. stop mocking God. i am not a good son of God. I dont go to church, i've not prayed for a long time. i've sinned so much by doing all the things that He told me not to do. But you know what... HE STILL LOVES ME SO MUCH. each time i break his heart, he NEVER gives up.. He finds ways and means to get to me.. to tell me that HE LOVES ME. He will try and try and try and try again till the day i DIE.

God is our father... just like your own flesh and blood father. Your daddy would love you no matter what you do... BECAUSE you're his son/daughter. There is no reason WHY. There is no reason. Our father in heaven loves us like how your daddy loves you. Its a RELATIONSHIP. FATHER AND CHILD RELATIONSHIP.

if you had done something that broke your daddy's heart so bad and left home.. because you were too ashamed to face him... is it still so easy for you to go home the next day and still bask in the love and care that he unconditionally gives you?? are you not ASHAMED? not GUILTY? it takes a lot a lot a lot of infinite courage to tell your daddy, I'M SORRY, WOULD YOU FORGIVE ME FOR THE THINGS I'VE DONE?

would you so easily be able to tell your daddy that I'M SORRY I BROKE YOUR HEART WHEN YOU LOVED ME WITH YOUR BODY AND SOUL?

you know that your daddy surely will forgive you BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU SO.

BUT WOULD U DO THAT??

it takes so much to face him. it takes so much to go back and say i'm sorrry.

do you know why i dont go to church, pray and sin and do all the things he told me not to?

BECAUSE I AM GUILTY. I AM ASHAMED. I AM BASICALLY A COWARD.

i dare not face him. i dare not go back to him and promise i will not stray. because i will. because satan will tempt me.

Satan tempts and tries to destroy people who are close to GOD. because satan OPPOSES GOD.

the closer i get to God, each time i try to go back Him, my life screws up. ask Christians around you. they have troubled lives. its not because God isnt there for them. God is.. always has been, and always will be. and so will Satan. Satan always has been everywhere God is and always will be. Satan tempts. Only the strongest in faith will be able to go through this ordeal till the day he dies and finally be together with God. Wouldnt that be most worthy one to be with God? Because God offers you the heavens. only the worthiest will be able to enjoy the goodness he gives.

I am not a person of strong faith. I back away from troubles, i run away from them. I am so afraid. I try to be alone.. but Im never happy without God in me. Its never complete. I never feel complete without him. Its only his LOVE can make me feel complete.


You will not understand why only his love will make me feel complete if you have not experienced God's love.

If you dont understand, i am not asking you to believe in God. you dont have to. i am in no position to preach God's words because i myself cant do what He tells me to do, so who am i to preach to you?

i only want you to respect me. Respect God. Respect that i love God and that i believe God is real. you cannot disrespect me just because you dont understand. if you are able to understand you wouldnt need to go through studying, go through life because you understand everything right?

because i am not the most patient person, the bestest friend or person you've ever met, the nicest girl you've ever seen, the angel i seem to be and find out later how devlish i am, DOES NOT MEAN THAT GOD IS LIKE THAT TOO. its just that i'm only human.. i ERR LIKE EVERYONE DOES. believing that Christ exist does not mean that we are PERFECT, does not mean that we make no mistakes, we are only HUMAN. we hate, we love, we do wrong, we can be fake, can be anything. we're only human. Believing in God is a relationship, not a religion.

Don't say that i dont go church and all that, and assume that God is nothing. Going to church is more than just physically going to a place. Its giving you heart, your body and your soul to Christ. Its telling Satan that you're ready to receive all his abuse and temptations.

i am not ready. and i feel like such a failure. i dont know when i will be.

so now.. dont ever mention 'religion' to me unless you understand how i feel and can help me through this. dont ever mock God infront of me.





.Monday, September 15, 2008 ' 11:52 pm Y
hand in hand we go

13.09.08

`went for global mktg lessons in the morning
`did proj w jia in school
`school was having some campus tour thing. so they were bringing pple around, going into places like the LAB.. so there were people and groups popping into the lab once in a while to take a look. and we felt very much like the monkies in the zoo. haha.
`met darling to have dinner at yaki yaki or yuki yuki..
`IT WAS FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!!!!
`had so much foooooooddd.
`and i made icecream!!!!!!!
`it has been a long time since i last spent my dinners like that w darling..
`i love you darling! love you for everything.. esp for being patient w me..
`walked past esplanade and saw many lantern trees...


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my ice cream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i made 7 flavours!! the pink one tastes like shit.

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((= LOVE LOVE LOVE ((=

14.09.08
`fell sick in the middle of the night
`went to work anyways.. cant i cannot afford to miss any lessons. i hate doing make up lessons the most. it upsets my schedule.
`the admin girls bought panadol for me..
`and i felt so so so so so so much better after popping 2
`private lesson was cancelled because she had dinner since it was MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL! `long gone were the days i carried lanterns around the neighbourhood and burning many many lanterns along the way. haha.


15.09.08

`am still a little sick today.. but i've gotten my voice back except that i've developed a cough that seems to go so deep into my lungs that i cant get it out.
`went to school as usual... had sherman's lecture on strat mktg, but man.. all he was talking abt was ORG BEHAVIOUR! argh.
`had lunch in school.. had yong tau hu and i think i'll just order without the bee hoon next time unless im really very very hungry because i was stuffed just eating the liaos. lesson learnt.
`did proj in the afternoon and we had such a tough time looking for labs. we ended up at one of the benches on the 4th floor splitting work.
`we did not only managed to split the work, but 2 of our proj mates.. for i cant rem what reasons.. got injured by ms soh. hahahaha. but it was really interesting to watch.. me, jia n ed being the audience
`went mc to play a bit of piano before meeting darling
`watched BANGKOK DANGEROUS with his friends from uni
`it was a NICE SHOW! i would rate it 3/5??
`and throughout the entire show i thought nicolas cage really looked like sherman!!!!!!!!!!! he really really does!! but goooodness the diff between them is HUGE. i got charmed by nicolas cage, and i never ever have gotten charmed by sherman.
`it was an evening spent w my love again ((= thanks darling for the love and care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





.Saturday, September 13, 2008 ' 1:27 am Y
hand in hand we go

i am DAMN PISSED.


my stupid printer ran out of ink while printing my GM notes halfway. so i took the cartridge out to refill the ink. (yes i'm using pirated ones) and i have absoutely no idea where to pump the ink into the cartridge and i made a bloody big mess out of it so now my fingers are stained with stubborn ink which i tried all ways and mean to rid of but to no avail. i tried normal handwash, shower foam, detergent, makeup remover and nail polish remover and I STILL CANT GET RID OF THE STUPID INK. now i've got a super dirty third finger which i think i'll use a plaster to cover up when i go school tomorrow. ARGGGGHH. the only comforting thing was i refilled the dumb thing in the toilet so i saved myself from making a mess in the living room.

after cleaning my fingers, the toilet and the cartridge, i fitted the thing back to the printer and lo and behold i printed the rest of the notes. so at least my fingers were dirtied for a cause.

when i closed the damn pdf after printing i accidently closed the PEST word document which i was working on the entire afternoon without saving it.

which explains why I AM DAMN PISSED NOW. wont i ever learn to save my documents every now and then?????????????????????????????????





.Thursday, September 11, 2008 ' 8:27 pm Y
hand in hand we go

09.09.08

had a biz finance test in the afternoon which we had so much "fun" figuring out all that messy theory and numbers for weeks.

after lesson, ed drove the group (minus glenn) to bugis for dinner and we shopped at the street after that!!! bought earrings and a tube and im so in the shopping mood ((= cant wait to get my hands on the tops from VS and F21 ((=

darling was sick the entire day. pls eat more vit C k...

10.09.08

had school as usual and sales comm lesson was BORING BORING BORING!!

did a focus grp thing for ed's MR proj and he was supposed to record a short 3 min clip, so all of us had to act act like we are using touch phones. and i couldnt stop laughing so we had to NG once. the second time the person beside me NG-ed because he couldnt stop laughing either. haha. but we managed to get the 3 min clip done the 3rd time round.

so anyways, the project season is here again!! time to slog for hours and hours infront of the com doing reports reports n more reports again. 3 big projects to be completed by sept. yeaaaaap.

went to darling's hse at night, and his bed was so comfy we both fell asleep till 1.30am before we groggily walked down the hill to flag a cab ((=

i love falling asleep on your arms, close beside you, to feel the warmth that you give, and waking up to you beside me.

11.09.08

didnt have lessons today but we went school for proj discussion. didnt think we were very productive today because we were half the time doing dont know what.. i tried to get some stuffs done but argh, my brain was half asleep and could churn nothing out. left school around 5 plus and ed drove us to bb for dinner. had zi char at the cc opp my house and the food was yummmeh!

its time to go bathe and get some work done noww.






.Friday, September 05, 2008 ' 2:28 am Y
hand in hand we go

reality is harsher than however you imagine it to be.
the world is not a rosy picture, i am not a person who would paint you one either.
i'd give you instead, what reality really is.
no point living in only what comforts you, one must learn to live with what disturbs you.
this is life for you and me.





.Tuesday, September 02, 2008 ' 12:55 am Y
hand in hand we go

had a bad morning because of some retarded stuff.


so anyways, to cut the long story short, after waking up to a retarded morning, i got ready for my first private lesson with 2 sisters whom i've been teaching for some time. they're absolute sweeties and its never a chore to teach them.


after that i went to school, picked up the damn notes and left. i had wanted to try going for lessons but i've never been to lessons alone before, so the moment i stepped in class plan B surfaced in an almost autopilot mode.


so lesson learnt here: i need to be more independent



and i went to mc for piano therapy afterwards and it was damn shiok to use the exam studio from 3pm to 9.30pm. HAHA. sight reading any score that i can get my hands on. grade 1 to 8 pieces, diploma pieces. damn good time spent there.



darling came over to meet me at BB after his lessons and we had bubble tea!! and he came up to MC for a while.. so we were just playing around with the piano and instruments and talk rubbish. hahaaa.



anyways, time to feed pappy ((=




p.s: like what pple always say, change is the only thing thats constant in this world. how true. hold onto things that are WORTH holding on. or least hold onto because you want to. i know what i truly want, and what i can or cannot let go.





.Monday, September 01, 2008 ' 12:20 am Y
hand in hand we go

i am damn tired because i slept at 2am and woke up at 9.30am, and spent my entire day teaching piano from 10.15am to 8.30pm. seriously... im damn sleepy now. hahaha. but i'm blogging because i feel emotionally rejuvenated!! and i need to jot this happy feeling down.

i wished i had more of those hours like that evening with you.
and i wished i could nestle in your hugs forever.
if kisses were tangible, i would want to keep yours in a bottle.
we'll ride the waves together,
my only wish is for life to be kinder.
i want to stay with you all my life,
i hope nothing would tear us apart,
because you're my significant other,
without you, i'm only half.
four hundred and four days and still counting. we'll keep moving forward together, just like how time has been ticking endlessly since forever.







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FROM ME TO YOUY

1. NEED TO FIND A JOB!!!!
2. Popeye's chicken, fries, mash potato...
3. IKEA's meatballs and chicken wings!
4. McGriddles!
5. Crystal jade's dim sum!
6. SASHIMI!!!!!
7. ENOUGH OF CNY GOODIES!!!!!!!!



.WISHBONE.Y

1. More quality time w darling
2. Meet ee gongs more often
3. Buy my eel wallet. haha.
4. Repair my piano
5. Get my car license
6. GET A JOB!!!

SWEETTALKSY


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