.Wednesday, November 26, 2008 ' 11:40 pm Y
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gawd. seriously... screw pms.
anyways, im so unhappy now. SO SO SO SO SO UNHAPPY. so unhappy that i HAVE TO SAY MY PIECE HERE.
this post is directed at specifically nobody, but everybody in general. definitely NOT directed at gavian, because i have spoken to him about how i feel.
clubbing this sort of thing among some couples is a taboo subject, and thus is the case for me.
i dont like my boyfriend to go clubbing, except mambo. all other clubs, NO. even with mambo, i am just okay, i dont like it either but he has been going all along and mambo is kind of harmless, so nvm, i tolerate him going mambo. but pls remember there is a limit to how much i can tolerate, in other sense, how many times a month.
if he is to go clubbing anywhere else, i will go too. or else, forget about going. or else, risk losing me. no joke here. i dont like it one tiny bit. not at all.
this is one issue and probably one of the most serious issues that i have little tolerance for. almost NONE. one mistake and that is it. i will make drastic decisions because i am led by my brain not my heart like how some pple do in relatioships. sorry im not that kind of girl who makes decisions by my heart. its either i go, or i dont and you dont too, or unless we're not together anymore, go by all means, i have no say.
i'll be peeved if anyone is to oppose me on this issue.
people having any problems with the way i handle mine relationship come and talk to me otherwise, if you dont like it one bit and dont want to approach me? i seriously dont give a bloody damn. have it MY way, or none.
HUMPH.
. ' 8:05 pm Y
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samsung has got pretty everything!!!!!!!
pretty phones, pretty mp3, pretty hd tvs. hahahaha.
maybe not just pretty for everything, but chic and sleeeeeeeek.
might get a samsung hdd to add on to my samsung collection because it looks sooooooooooo pretttaaaaay.
have got a prettttty white samsung mp3 and a prettttttty white samsung phone (though it doesnt look so prettttttty now. instead it looks kinda dirrrrtttttty) hahahaha. and a prettttttttyyy sleek samsung tv in the living room. pretty pretty samsung.
sorrry dont know whats up with all the dragged alphabets.
wheeee! so happy darling's papers are gonna end TOMORRRRRROWWWWWWWWW!
BUT I HAVE YET TO START ANYTHING ON MY DRIVING.
ohhhhh whhhaatttt tttthhhheee hhhheeeelllllllllllllllllll.
someone pls get me lazy arse to go BBDC.
argh. im feeling pain from head to toe. pms, cramps, sore eye, ulcers.
cant exactly blame me for my bad mood can i?
my student pissed me off yesterday. and to top it off a friend cancelled plans last minute which got me even more irritated. but just as well since i was feeling tired too and i was able to use the time to catch up a little with jo in mc as well as go borrow more books which i've already read 1 and returned it today.
wheeeeeeeeeeee. serious gai gai-ing and slacking starts tomorrrowww when moo's paper ends! ((=
.Monday, November 24, 2008 ' 10:31 pm Y
hand in hand we go
im really so bored.
piano tomorrow and then gai gai with ms soh ((=
shit ive got painful ulcers again!
cant wait for moo's exams to be over!
screeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwww exams!
oh what am i gonna do when merry-dec ends? sighs. can dec not end pls?
it means i'll have to find a job and go to amca classes alone =(((((((
anyways, time to fill in the blanks..
happy 16th ________
.Friday, November 21, 2008 ' 9:36 pm Y
hand in hand we go
as i've mentioned before i have been dutifully tidying my room, clearing rubbish away and by rubbish i think its more like old stuffs i've been keeping for memories sake.
now that i've got a clearer idea of what i want in life, the directions that i wanna take, as well as know who are the impt pple in my life, know which group of pple are passé, it is so much easier to leave memories from the past behind. and leaving them behind means throwing away stuffs i used to keep dear and close to me heart.
but i cant help but be saddened by the reality of what used-to-be precious memories now insignificant and vague.
i never liked reading old letters and they always bring back such strong emotions that i had long forgotten how it feels to feel them.
were childhood memories meant to be forgotten? i dont know about others, but mine is kinda painful to keep. they were too happy to be remembered.
i was happy because i had a group of friends i shared my up and and downs with. not now anymore.
i was happy because they meant the world to me. not now anymore.
we used to share everything, spent everyday other than weekends together, went through so much together and i'm amazed how impalpable all these has become now. even memories of them had faded away. i dont remember much of them myself.
it means nothing now, no more significant, unimportant. the pple have also faded with the memories.
i, as well as them, have been too involved with our own lives to bother about how an old friend is doing.
look at how curt our messages are now, how unimportant we have become in each other's lives. i feel as though we dont even know how to speak and communicate with each other anymore. in fact, we dont. in fact, the only reason why we remember one another is because we spent damn too many significant years in each other's lives and its not so easy to erase that familarity of each other's presence.
truth is, we are no more than aquaintances now. i dont even know them anymore. we'll just keep moving on like how we did, till one day we dont even remember each other's brithdays anymore.
perhaps, the 21st birthdays will be the last we'd ever wish one another.
this feeling will pass. no point missing them, missing the good ol' times. i will be done with tidying soon and i'm gonna keep all the memories and letters in some obscure corner which i never ever have to dig them up again or best, throw them away if i can bring myself to.
im so disappointed with all of them. you girls are so selfish. i dont even know if you still miss me and others like how i missed all of you.
.Thursday, November 20, 2008 ' 12:39 am Y
hand in hand we go
sighs. i want to go ikea and get a cupboard, small table and cute chairs so i can throw away the ugly cartons and ugle table and useless side table in my room!!
i managed to
`trim my eyebrows
`get my resume done complete with a new PHOTO!!!
`spring cleaned 2/5 of my room
`cleared 1/2 of my makeup lessons
`made sandwich for darling!!
theres still like 101 things to do be done.
like..
`spring clean the rest of my room
`buy furniture
`GET MY DAMN PDL and start lessons
wheee.. some photos i took with pappy...
can u spot mr moo n the pig behind???
gosh look at my eyebag!!! URRGGHH
.Sunday, November 16, 2008 ' 11:40 pm Y
hand in hand we go
oh man. min introduced me this buttercupwheels web and i'm so so so so in love with some of the agnes b stuffs inside!!!!!! authentic or not i'm not too sure, but it sure does look real!!!!!!!!!!!! anyhowsssss, i will definitely get my hands on some of those stuffs IF she goes on a spree again!!!!!!!!!! AH BU!!!! pls dont leave me out of this spree again horrrrr!! (((=
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
yes i know im old alr shdnt be carrying pink anymore. but the pink is so niceeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
pink pink pink again!! would perfer this than the above tho.. ((=
abit man right?? but its a safe design and colour.
this is damn nice too.. but im so gonna dirty it somehow!
wheee... these crocs are fat and nice but i guess it looks a little old on me. but still nice tho!!!
nice pouch!!!!!!!!!!! for coins maybe??
this is seriously cute but a little waste money right?
I WANT THIS MAKEUP POUCH!
WHEEE!!
p.s: min is gonna buy me wallettttttttttttttttt!!
.Saturday, November 15, 2008 ' 4:37 pm Y
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wheeeeee.
my resume is ALMOST done. just need a good photo and i'm so off looking for a job!!! wheee!!
florence will take me shopping for working pants and all that next sat i hope! ((=
and i rearranged my desktop! deleted all the rubbish projs half edited reports with just ONE click. now my desktop is neat and clean and i also rearranged all the folders in my impt impt med's folder. all my pictures, songs, resumes and whatnots. all i have to do now is to get one hdd and transfer that particular folder into it and i wont have to worry about com crashing and losing datas.
yay!
and now i wished i could do the same with my room. clean my room with just ONE click! throw away my things with just ONE click! rearrange my stuffs with just a few clicks! and i'm done done done! dont need to painstakingly deal with dusts and feel dirrrrttty. argh.
save me.
ok. its time i start a little bit of cleaning. le sighs. =(
.Wednesday, November 12, 2008 ' 1:27 am Y
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doodles. theres like a thousand and one thing to do, yet i'm not getting anything done.
i want to trim my eyebrows so.very.badly. the aunty who trims my eyebrow is always not around when i go look for her. argh.
i want to get my resume done quickly so i can start sending it out. and start looking for a damn job. (not that im eager to dive into the corporate world, but slacking at home is not gonna earn me any moolahs and not especially when times are bad, its not so easy to secure a job i actually like.)
i want to get my PDL and book a damn TP date so i can start driving lessons and get it over with (provided i dont fail the TP) and get my bloody driving license.
i want to enjoy my merry-dec-christmas month with my moo.
i dont want to clean and tidy my room. I NEED TO. even i, cant stand the sight of the mess. i so NEED to clean and tidy my messy nest.
anyways, 'nuff of ramblings.
pictures from my sweets 21st bday!!!!!
.Sunday, November 09, 2008 ' 10:45 pm Y
hand in hand we go
08.11.08
went to bugis in the late afternoon. was there on a mission to buy aunty soh's bday pressie at sim lim. aunty wong was supposed to accompany me there!!!! however, because of some unforeseen circumstances, i ended up alone in bugis. but darling was so sweet he came all the way down from home to accom me to sim lim! exams are just round the corner for him, this coming fri to be exact, and i feel bad i took up so much of his time.
but anyways, while waiting for my moo to come, i shopped at Levis!!! hahaha. not that i was so rich that i had to kill time by shopping in Levis, but there was this trade in any old pair of jeans to get $50 rebate on any pair of Levis jeans at min $100 promo.
i couldnt resist the temptation. (what a failure right? im a marketer myself, and i still fell for these delusional marketing tactics!!! ARGH.) so i went bugis armed with 2 pairs of old jeans, one for me, one for darling. and i happily topped up $99.90 for a pair of jeans with the trade in! like so irritating. normally i wouldnt spend so much for a pair of jeans, but there there.. without even hestitating once, i swiped a hundred buckaroos away.
and when my moo came, i brought him to Levis and he bought a pair of jeans too! there wasnt a lot of designs to choose from and many were out of size, so we settled for one dark denim and topped up $50 buckaroos happily too!
that was our short shopping stint on a lovely saturday.
and off to sim lim we went, up and down the escalator looking for aunty soh's RED WD HARDDRIVE. while searching for aunty's present, i am even more certain i want that MINI LAPTOP!! ANY BRAND ANY COLOUR! preferbly blue or pink! i just want one small cute mini lappie. hahahaha. and oh yes, if a mini lappie isnt possible, i want that PINK LENOVO SMALL LAPPIE!!! its so so so so so so so so so so sooooooooooo CUTE AND SWEET OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT BUT BUT darling says i have no need for it and he's not gonna let me buy any laptops =(((
so anyways, we did managed to find aunty soh's red hdd and i met up with uncle kit and uncle hong at sim lim to share cab to aunty soh's chalet at pasir ris. and on the way, out of mischief i lied to uncle kk that we bought him ntuc vouchers for his bday and being the uncle that he is proven to be, couldnt stop nagging at how stupid we are to get him ntuc vouchers and in his own words "wtf does he need ntuc vouchers for?!?!?!"
hahahaha. gawd. i had an earful of nonsense from him but it was fun seeing him in disbelief at our "stupidity". he found out later that we bought him capital land mall's vouchers instead and he was so relieved and so happy and so.. i dont know how else to describe his happiness. hahaha.
not gonna wish aunty soh happy 21st yet because its not yet the 13th ((=
it was a nice happy celebration, aunty soh being the happiest of all among us, having her face smashed in secret recipe's oreo cheesecake. hahaa. poor girl. but anyways, aunty soh was still a happy bday girl, and very sadly i couldnt stay for long at the chalet because i had to catch the last train home. aunty min sent me to the train station and i reached home around 12.50am. it was a long lonely journey, having only my mp3 for company. but i was so tired i was half asleep the entire journey ((=
p.s: no pictures because i'm waiting for the aunty to upload them ((=
09.11.08
whee. had piano in the morning as usual. lessons were ok.. and its so much fun teaching higher grades. my student had fun, and so did i ((=
and its time to go feed pappy the pig.
.Friday, November 07, 2008 ' 9:03 pm Y
hand in hand we go
i am pissed.
. ' 1:49 am Y
hand in hand we go
celebrated my mum's bday at xin fu yum cha in town and we were stuffed stuffed stuffed to the max. it was buffet dinner and the bill came up to $40 per pax!!!! i thought it was so not worth the dollar spent though the food was alright it didnt taste too bad. just normal, nice restaurant food BUT the ambience was like shit totally. other than the yucky sago honeydew dessert i had, i would rate the rest of the food 3 stars out of 5. so all in all, the whole experience was just OKAY. wouldnt be back there again though. not worth $40 for the substandard experience.
then we went to the new marina barrage!!!!!!!!!! its gonna be some new dating place in the future for couples i'm sure. woohoo! very esplanade like, minus the crowd. so its a nice romantic place to walk around the place, along the bridge, up the barrage with your bf/gf.
some peektures we took:
tadaa. till the next time!!!!!!!!! i'm off to sleep. and hope i can have some sweet dreams for a change!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stop dreaming about ghosts, cockroaches and whatnots!
.Wednesday, November 05, 2008 ' 1:36 pm Y
hand in hand we go
whee! had our last paper yesterday!
but it was a killerrr =((
argh.
but anyways..... its time to movee on and complete all the things on my to-do-list:
` go shopping w shihui and buy her present
` buy present for S
` buy present for my mum on behalf of darling
` buy formal clothes
` trim eyebrow
` tidy/clean my room
` go BBDC topup my acct, book the date for TP and get my PDL
` contact the driving instructor and start learning
` find sample resume to copy. hahaha.
` start sending resumes after doing the resume
` in other words, start looking for a job
and after darling's exams...
` go zoo!
` drive around again ((=
` go swimming
` watch dl-ed movies!
` go out gai gai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
((=
it was a fun fun day yesterday!! after exams us girls and the SIM guys went to bugis... had dinner at ajiteh. food was not too bad, but the ambience was a bit like shit. anyways, went to look for shihui's hdd at sim lim but could find nothing except this WD brand. gonna go back there again today with her to search for her dream hdd. then we went to the arcade!! and we had so much fun there!! shihui and me played the ghost thing which you can hit the screen with their hammer thingy and oh my! my arms are aching from all the whacking today! we played the mario game, the throw balls at the screen game.. hahahaha. and then it was to minds cafe, which we played 2 really fun games. one which made us do really stupid actions like standing up and sitting down, clapping our hands, cover our ears (which some of us ended up slapping our own faces), and stretching our hands. it was fun fun fun! and then we played this truth-or-dare variation of jenga. hhahahaa.
it was a nice change from mugging to having so much fun playing games!
caught the last train with shihui and i went to look for darlingggg! stayed around for a while before he sent me down the hill to flag for a cab! love you darrrlingggg!! work hard for exams!! i'll wait for you to finish and we can go play play play!!!!!!!!!
tata. needa go bathe and get ready to meet aunty soh. this girl always steal my pencil and bring it home during our exam period.
